#no I'm just 37 and had an excesstencile crisis

[skepticoyote]

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so someone in my family (no one super close but the aunt of my only niece & nephew - RELEVANT) who was exactly my age died from cancer this week and she had a lot of the same mental health issues I do and holy shit if that doesn’t slap you right in the face with a hot pan of perspective I tell you what

i feel like I literally just became an adult but like in a good way?

my niece & nephew (we need a neutral word for plural niece and nehpews fuck) lost the aunt who literally lived next door to them all their life and her daughter was there and fuck, man

I just tried to not blubber like a fucking loon and told them that their aunt and uncle - my partner and I - love them like fucking crazy and that we’re always gonna be there no matter what even if they’re gay not that I think either of them are but I wouldn’t fucking care if they WERE and I needed them to know that

and holy fuck

it’s a fucking mufasa moment

edit: I forgot a bunch of shit

anyway my partner has a pretty stable job and I don’t NEED to work 40 hours a week, so I’m doing the happy housewife thing and cooking all fucking day and writing smut with my friends and DRAWING and being EXCITED ABOUT DRAWING because it is magic to turn a few lines into a static image that lives and breathes.

and I am so happy.

I am posting on here like I’m 15 and just got free reign of the DSL cable, just gushing unashamedly about the things I love and threw caution to the wind and opened a kofi and like i’m not expecting ANYTHING, I just wanna draw stupid shit for like no money and imagine if I could do that for the rest of my life dude

I’m seriously not high right now either